An Actors Blog

There is absolutely no doubt about it.  I am so far yet I can taste it.  She is out there...not perfect but there.  She has an incredible gut instinct.  She see's the potential.   She fears the challenge but is for some reason hearing a voice that says "take the chance".  Do this or do whatever.  She will go where she needs to go.  

I have this remarkable image....a fantasy.  I am walking down the busy streets of Manhatten.  She rushes past me and doesn't even look at me....but I see something.  I don't know what...but I know it's there.  I approach her, knowing she might brush me off, thinking I'm some kinda nut, a fake, a con.  I don't care.  I have nothing to loose.   I pursue...  I introduce myself and she is polite.  I ask her if she can act.  She says no but has always wanted to.  It begins. 

You may have noticed that I said on Dec 28th 2005 I made a commitment to get into film.  The idea had been there a long time but I always felt it would be impossible.  I had been involved in the life of a beautiful young lady who I got to know intemately.  Her story of her life and how she saw it heightened my interest and concern.  Her story was like I had never known.  The details that she described were vivid, astonishing...frightening.

The images of her life are scolded in my mind and soul...

Dreaming and doing are never the same...I am still determined regardless of the tremendous obsticles I have encountered.  Failing equipment, sceptical actresses, broken commitments and most of all the need to just survive.  The rent must be paid.  Deadlines pushed ahead to the next year...etc.

This is where I stand now.  I have almost nothing.  I am beggining again with where I started several months ago, litterally with nothing. 

I said "almost nothing".  I still have the belief that it can be done,  the memory of what I have accomplished.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life....let it now begin.